Trigger warnings:

isolation, paranoia, trauma implied, simulated viscera & bugs

✖ Last Seen Listening To:

.44 Caliber Brain Surgery - Demolition Hammer

✖ Latest Journal Entries:

Last updated: ��/��/22i dont think im going to ever feel safe. im finally moved out and im away and im starting fresh or whatever but its all still here, these feelings of deep dark dread. it stalks me, this fear, i feel its eyes on me from every angle no matter where i hide. im stuck here, stuck in one place, with no comfort but myself and it scares the shit outta me!! and talking about it to anyone is just not a fucking option cuz ive already talked to everyone about this a gazillion fucking times!! and its just glued to my head, no matter how much i think and think and rationalize and wish it away it will not fucking elave my head!!!! moving away was my one fucking failsafe the singular thing that i thought would fix this stuck feeling, this tar in my chest sinking me into the fucking ground but it isnt and i dont know what the fuck im gonna do anymore idunno what to do about this. i dont know any other way out. i wish i did but i dont and the longer this shit in my head goes on the easier the decision is getting. i dont know i dont fucking know im sorry fuck. im sorry

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✖ Last Seen Listening To:

Scorched Utopia - Scythelord

✖ Latest Journal Entries:

Last updated: ��/��/24check out what i picked up at the thrift store with my best buddiesss :-}

- MICAH

Trigger warnings:

parental abuse, isolation

❦ Last Seen Listening To:

Runnin' Free - Nicole Dollanganger

❦ Latest Journal Entries:

Last updated: ��/��/22I'm trapped. That's dramatic, yes, but I don't have any other way to say it. I do not remember the last decision I truly made for myself. It's always been someone else's (mainly my parents') choice. I've come to realize this in college, all of the people I hear talking are so independent... It's very embarrassing to admit, but I still don't really know how to do the laundry. My parents still do it. It's conflicting... I want to do well by my family and make my parents proud, but I don't want this life. I don't like this path. I've already crossed them enough as is, they were furious when I told them I wanted to study art rather than be a nurse. And there's so much I want to do still, but I can feel the breaths of those above me, heavy and warm on my neck as I go about my day. I can't even really say I'm living my life, I'm really living theirs.

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❦ Last Seen Listening To:

Tonight You Belong To Me - Patience and Prudence

❦ Latest Journal Entries:

Last updated: ��/��/24I love art! I love history! Yay!

- Lottie

Trigger warnings:

internalized ableism, chronic illness/disorder